He said to them, “What are you discussing as you go your way?”
They halted in distress, and one of them, Cleopas by name, asked him, “Are you the only resident of Jerusalem who does not know the things that went on there these past few days?”
He said to them, “What things?”
They said, “All those that had to do with Jesus of Nazareth, a prophet powerful in word and deed in the eyes of God and all the people; however, our chief priests and leaders delivered him up to be condemned to death, and crucified him. We were hoping that he was the one who would set Israel free. Besides all this, today, the third day since all these things happened, some women of our group just brought us some astounding news. They were there at the tomb before dawn and failed to find his body, but returned with the tale that they had seen a vision of angels who declared he was alive. Some of our number went to the tomb and found it just as the women had said; but him they did not see.”
Then he said to them, “What little sense you have! How slow you are to believe all that the prophets have announced! Did not the Messiah have to undergo all this so as to enter into his glory?” Beginning, then, with Moses and all the prophets, he interpreted for them every passage of scripture which referred to him.             Luke 24:17-27

It started like a dream. A spoiled boy like me, out of nowhere, was thinking to join a religious order and become a catholic priest. It was a holy dream indeed, but also it was somewhat trouble some. It took me sometimes to finally realize this dream was for real. It would not go over, unless I took action to respond it. So, I gave up, and even I wasn’t sure about what I was doing, I began picking up my bag-pack and started the journey, which I realized would never make me returned to what I’d past.

Just like any other dreams that people had, I found the journey that I took was unclear. It gave me some notion that I was going in right paths, which is at the same time, made me feel that I never know when it will be ended and how it was going to be. I did not know yet whether this is an exciting dream or a longlife nightmares…

In this dream, I find more often I was alone. I was alone when I felt doubts about my vocation. I was alone when I left home for the very first time to go to Novitiate. I felt alone last year when I struggled with my assignment here at Xavier High School. However, looking back again to reality, I was sure that I was never alone. Something greater was taking lead to my journey and obviously he always make aware of his presence along the way. He greets, he sings, he shouts, … even his silence presence, make me noticed something should be mentioned afterward. In other word, he does make conversation. Furthermore, he is able to convince me this journey should be my reality.

The dream continues. Yes, still there were times that I found myself in the middle of horrified nightmares. A kind that you wanted so much to be awaked from. Even such nightmares had proved me that I need them. They taught me about what does it feel to have hope, joy and gratitudes. For all of these, I thank them by reminding me that yet I did not reach the end of this journey. Most of all, now I may know what does it feel to have a real dream …